The Night Before

Here I am at nearly midnight the night before Nic leaves back to Iraq. We had so much fun this trip. The best part about this trip was how quickly we fell back into our routine. Usually there is somewhat of an adjustment. It feels so good to have Nic home. I can't tell you how much I appreciate that feeling of wholeness. When he's gone I feel so incomplete. Taelynn remembered Nic so quickly and Max became very comfortable with him. Taelynn is 10 times happier when he's home.....we all are. This R&R was unique from other ones he's had because we had a chance to get away without our kids. Vegas was so much fun and a nice break for an overworked mommy ;) We were ready to be home with our kids by the end though. There's nothing like having your complete family unite together. We had a lot of fun with friends and family. It was such a nice Christmas. The moments I will remember the most have nothing to do with Vegas or things we got or places we went. The thing that MADE this vacation was the moments we spent as a family in our own home playing with our kids. Calling Taelynn puppy and watching Max crawl all over the place. Dancing in our living room, watching Tae shake her "groove thang". And now it comes to an end. Tomorrow Nic leaves and I have to try to tough the last 4 months. I get this feeling of despair the last 24 hrs. as I'm desperately trying to cling on to every second. I can't help but feel like we are tearing our family apart. It feels so unnatural to send your husband across the globe for half a yr at a time. So tomorrow I will be crankin' up my ipod to Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive" and Jodee Messina's "Bring on the Rain."

All I want for Christmas

All I want for Christmas is an electric blanket. I'm cold, really cold. I'm talking cuddling up to a vampire cold. I'm so cold my bones hurt. My thermostat says it's 72 but I'm feeling more like freezing. I would turn it up except I keep having problems with the stupid thing kicking off in the night so I'm afraid to touch it. So Santa all I want for Christmas is a nice warm electric blanket so I don't fall asleep every night thinking about how I'm going to end up like my Grandma wearing a coat in July.